I simply loved this book, and this despite its sometimes chaotic unfolding, its narcissism, its focus on drug experiences and regular psychotic episodes. What is fascinating about Perez's book is the ultra-conscious description of the spiritual journey on which AIDS takes him. It's Perez's ability to use every single dramatic moment of his life to open his heart and his soul even more. The result is unique: the victimization stigma that plagues homosexuals and homosexual identity in general is simply and purely transcended, in other words, it disappears into a much larger awareness about what being homosexual is about. Try searching on Amazon.com again, but I can assure you that we will not find another book that conveys a transformative process of such scope and depth. At the end, pride, love, and a deep sense of connection with the universe all emerge from our gay being, effortlessly, beautifully. Perez is describing the true experience of gay-self-love that gay activism has been faking now for decades.This book will open a new era of gay literature.